I am a bigg music buff.. I ENJOY singing, listening to music and everything.. but only when I'm alone or when I'm with people who're really close... My friends know me as someone who's always humming some song.. Sometimes, when I'm bored in class, I start singing suddenly, disturbing two or three benches.. :D Everyone sitting in the front row turns back n giggles :) When they get bored, they ask me to sing some song they like and I start off :)
All this is fine.. Ask me to sing in front of a group of people, I mean formally, I start getting jitters.. I have this problem right from childhood I guess..
I got a dose of this fear again recently.. :D It was ethnic day in my college.. Everything was fine until the lecturer asked who can sing well and all the girls started taking my name, jolting me completely! :D I was like nooooo ma'am, pleeaase, not singing.. But the lecturer, as usual didn't budge.. She was like you have to.. I felt totally helpless, poor me.. :( I didn't have any escape.. I had to sing..
I drank some water, closed my eyes and tried to calm myself down and I did it.. :D I sang 'lag ja gale'.. I guess, the first stanza was pretty decent.. After that I became conscious..
the second stanza actually goes like this..
Paas aaiye ke hum nahi aayenge baar baar
baahen gale me daal kar, hum role zaar zaar
aankhon se phir yeh pyaar ki barsaat ho na ho
shayad phir is janam me mulaqat ho na ho..
(Oh man!!.. Such beautiful lyrics!)
My voice trembled so much, I guess people thought I got into the mood of the song or something :D
I wonder how people manage to sing in front of a huge crowd!! Man, it scares me.. Kudos to them, really..!! It is nice to have the ability to entertain a crowd of people, isn't it..?
Dayanna(my brother) who doesn't like Lata Mangeshkar's voice, had once told me that my voice is better than Lata Mangeskar's :D :D Hehe.. This is the BIGGEST compliment I've ever got :D Maybe even greatest of singers don't get such a huge compliment!! :D
Hmmm, jokes apart, will I ever be able to get over this stupid phobia!!
*Shakes head in despair*
Dont worry, you will surely over come it. If you have the guts to admit it,you can surely overcome it.
ReplyDeleteit was a nice song n ur a very gud singer shu really. v ve heard u many times in class n der s no doubt tat u r an excellent entertrainer n on ethnic day also u really sang well. so pl do nt hesitate 2 sing in front of a crowd ,ur gifted n pl do share it wit ppl :)
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